Things You Might Find Helpful

So I was just thinking instead of reading some advices about "these and that" things, maybe I'll just make my own.

Una.

Making Jokes.

If you do that to me, it'll pass after a minute but if it were someone else, you wouldn't know how she/he would feel. Even though you feel, you've created a bond already, just be careful with your words and actions toward ssomeone coz it might hurt her feelings. I am very careful with jokes- what's even more surprising is that, I haven't joked since I got into "something awkward". thing. So awkward I couldn't make a move anymore. sucks.loser.

Shouting.

We are leaving in a fast-paced life. We are always in a hurry that we tend to shout at each other-Intentionally or unintentionally, the result is the same. You'll end up still hurting someone's feeling. Shouting in a way of a joke is reallly not good. Look at the person's expression after you've shouted at her ( you are smiling knowing it's a joke) but you'll see...she's hurt. And you did hurt her feelings.

Being in a crowd.

For me, it's getting harder and I am becoming very paranoid about this. No, I shouldn't feel that. No No No. But really, the situation is, you were ask to join them but actually they aren't talking to you- or worse, turned their back on you. What's that supposed to mean? You're just being used, girl Don't be fooled by plastics. Another situation is, someone wasn't talking to you, but actually if he isn't talking to anyone, he calls on you, talk to you. If he's called by another group, he leaves you without a word. WTF is that again? I tell you, leave them. Don't even think about being with them.

Favor.

This one is worst. Ever experienced being talked behind your back but is being a "hey, help me with this" situation? It happens to a lot of people. Try to assess. These persons are just taking advantage of your kindness and does not deserve you. Although it flatters a lot knowing that you've helped them but the case is just so awkward. it's not fair. And what's worst? When you're the one approaching them, they'd say " I don't know", ALWAYS. Oh GOSH! These PEOPLE!

Silence could mean.

You're in another awkward scene. These people might just have something against you or even talked about you. Feeling paranoid? No, you're not. It's reality.

Too friendly?

Watch out, girl. There are eyes who are too sensitive and would make some erroneous judgment. It's really bothering.

Friends, or not friends but grouped.

Be sensitive enough to feel the crowd. Are you being true to one another? Or ware they true to you? Ask yourself that.

Mean, SO mean

These people just do exist. They feel great about themselves but when time comes that they're being attacked, they just break EVERYONE'S mood as if he's the leader of the group. But actually she had taken advantage of each one of them. Asks you favor and doesn't thank you for helping him. Thanking is not a hard thing to do. Ever thought of yourself gratefully thanking them but never heard of them thanking on anyone?

Peer Pressure

It's true that it is making your life pretty hard. Just don't let yourself drown , feeling the emptiness in you. Coping is hard in the process but you'll sure get out of it. Find other personalities that suits you even better than the previous. God has many creations.

Doubting You

There are just these people who doubt you as someone else you're not. Telling a few that you're somebody, something you're not, and worse- people joking at you intentionally. Isn't that bad? Just go away from those eyes and move on with your own life. Some people just don't deserve your time.

I was just bored....and a bit curious about my real situation.
Friends, you might want to take a personality test from this website.
enjoy!

www.trans4mind.com

My Results:

SCORING....

31 30 29 28 27 26 25 24 23 22 21 20 19 18 17 16 15 14 13 12 11 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

Extravert/Intravert

Analysis

People scoring high on this Trait are generally active and energetic, enjoying all kinds of physical activity including hard work and exercise, pursuing a wide variety of different interests.
People with low scores are inclined to be physically inactive, lethargic and easily tired. They prefer leisurely activities and find it hard to get going in the morning.
High activity is an extravert characteristic: such a person is outgoing because he has clear goals and knows what he wants - this provides the energy. Low activity tends to go with introversion: a more inward-looking, self-conscious and inhibited personality. The person's goals may not be as clear - he may have suffered failure or trauma in the past and therefore have less confidence and energy.
My score : 18.5
what can I say about this. uhhmm yeah, i do lack confidence- or even trust, to others. if you base it on my past experience during my highschool and early college days, you'll surely understand me. But atleast, I'm not INTRAVERT.

Sociability

Analysis

People scoring high on this Trait tend to seek out the company of others, they like social functions such as parties and dances and are comfortable when meeting new people. They are extraverted and unselfconscious in company. People with low scores prefer to have only a few special friends (who are like them) and most enjoy doing things on their own. They tend to be selfconscious and worry about finding things to talk about with other people. Though they may feel content enough, they seem to others to be introverted and, maybe, unfriendly. They have probably had frustrating or humiliating experiences in the past when trying to communicate and so they avoid risking a repetition. They may justify this with a consideration that others are unintelligent or trivial, further solidifying their inhibition. Or they may feel that they have better things to do!

My score: 19.0

I'm inclined to avoiding people anytime possible without a word. I'm a bad person. hahaha!

Risk Taking

Analysis

High scorers seek rewards with little concern for the possible adverse consequences and they find that an element of risk adds spice to their life. They are not afraid of change or growth or exposing their feelings. People with low scores prefer familiarity, safety and security, even if it means sacrificing some degree of excitement in their life. Such a person is ruled by fears.

My score: 13.0

Expressiveness

Analysis

The ability to express one's emotions outwardly and openly, whether love, hate, to make up extraversion.
High scorers tend to be volatile and demonstrative. Those with low scores inhibit the expression of their thoughts and feelings, and try to bury upsets in the past, leaving themselves frustrated and unheard.
My score: 24.0
NOTE!!!
Do you buy presents for people even though there is no occasion that calls for it?

I DO I DO I ........DO!!!

Emotional Stability

Trait 1 - SELF-ESTEEM

Analysis

Self-esteem is a trait of emotional stability, of being comfortable with oneself. Lack of self esteem, or inferiority complex, is a trait of emotional instability or neuroticism. Self-esteem is acquired through a history of successfully completed actions that demonstrate competence: the ability to produce a desired effect. Those with high self-esteem scores have plenty of confidence in themselves and their abilities and believe that they are well-liked by other people.
Those with low scores have a low opinion of themselves and tend to project that opinion into other peoples' minds so they then assume that others consider them unattractive or incapable. This makes them self-conscious and inhibited. Such "mind-reading" needs to be disputed and self-esteem recovered by the acknowledgement of achievements.
My score: 12.0

Trait 3 - ANXIETY

ANALYSIS

Anxious persons are easily upset when things go slightly wrong and are inclined to worry unnecessarily about what may or may not happen. They are ruled by fears and suffer a high level of stress. When anxieties are exaggerated or irrational, emotions become unstable and may develop into neurotic compulsions or phobias. Those with low scores are placid, serene and resistant to irrational fears and anxieties - that is, provided they are reasonably happy and outgoing. This implies an understanding that problems are best faced with equanimity, that resistance does not make them go away, and that problems - if faced squarely - are really the stuff that makes life interesting. A person in apathy or grief, however, may not feel anxiety because he has already given up (fear being a more causative emotional tone than apathy or grief).


My score : 22.0

I was surprised at my result. I never thought I have so many problems with about myself. I knew I am bit self-conscious and i feel a bit awkward when I'm on a crowd. My self-esteem is just so low. I hate to admit that to myself. Because the way I see myself, I am very jolly and I can easily relate with others. Gosh, I really really need to change myself into something good. Someone who would be as optimistic and alive. But if I try to re-assess myself, my past experience has greatly contributed to what I am now. Because of what I've been through, it became so hard for me TRUST others. And it just happened again, just recently. I feel so bad about opening myself to them and then in return I hear a word from others that someone had already talked behind my back, or even shared about how that person felt awkward around me. That was so hard to believe. Ugh! Because I really thought I found a friend. But now, I've learned to move on. I've moved on. I don't want to become a paranoid. It's a pain. This test really me realize so many things. You should try this one too! Visit : www.trans4mind.com, and take the test. You'll enjoy the test.
Life must go on!!!!

Songs of My Life

I've been very attached to songs now since I got an ipod. Gosh! Thanks to my brother for the gift. I've said that a couple of times already and I'm still grateful for this gift. Thanks Thanks!

Well, actually I am a true blue song lover, music lover, anything that describes someone who just love listening to SONGS slash MUSIC. I have so many favorites, and believe it or not they are mostly love songs. Songs that I've dedicated to my loved ones, crushes and friends. Anyway, this is going to be so random. Just for fun before I go to my duty today. I won't be bringing my ipod with me so that accident will be avoided. Just for some practicality reasons, even though my hands are itching.

Top 1 Dreaming of You - Selena

- Bakit nga ba? The truth is, I dedicate this song to my former crush na si Mark. Ito yung kanta for him. Why again? Because it speaks about me talaga. I used to dream about him at night and then the next day, i'd see him in the jeepney we used to ride to school. gosh. But the thing is, the last part of the song didn't happen. Haaayy. buhay pagibig.

Top 2 I'll Never Get Over You Gettin' Over Me- MYMP/ Bellefire

- This one is for him also. It remains a mystery why everytime I hear this song, Si mark agad ang naalala ko.

Top 3 Buloy- Parokya Ni Edgar

- Hindi na pagibig ito. Friendship. Itong kantang ito ang gusto kong ipahiwatig sa nga kaibigan ko. Sa dinami-daming kanta jan ewan ko kung bakit ito pa. Gusto ko lang sabihin sa mga amigas/amigos ko na pag kasama nyo ako, walang dramahan. Ako lang ang pwedeng magdrama, joke! hahahaha!

Top 4 You Are My Song - Regine Velasquez

- Whhuuu ito! Grabe, noon , sabi ko ang ganda ng song. Ang taas nya. Regine eh. But now, I realized that it isn't just because of Regine why I fell inlove with the song. It speaks a lot about true love that have yet to come in my life. Kailan ba kita makikita? Kakantahan kita neto. Promise!

Top 5 I Can - Donna Cruz/ Regine Velasquez/ Mikki Cuanco

- This song speaks a lot about faith, strength, friendship and trust. Grabe, I love this song.

Top 6 Forever- Chris Brown

- This song just inspired me to dance again. Since when did I last dance on stage? I missed the stage. Super.

Top 7 One Step at A Time - Jordin Sparks
- This one, part of the song speaks abot believing in yourself, the other part speaks about LOVE. Taking it easy by taking one step at a time. Ganda ng song na to. Promise. It has been one of my faves since I heard of this.

Top 8 Journey - forgot the singer ( will get back to yah later!)

- Oh, I forgot to get the singers. Sorry. Who was it again? Hmmm...This one speaks of our journey in life. Each person has his own path, journey and this song just never fail to remind you of how you handled your life your way.

Top 9 Butterfly- Mariah Carey

- This song caught my attention. First, because of the title. Second, it was sung by Mariah Carey. Third, the lyrics. Gosh! And ganda.

Top 10 drum rolls please........ Every Breath You Take - The Police / Brooke White

- ANOTHER LOVE SONG THAT WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVORITE.

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So I have made my list. You have made yours already?
LIST YOURS TOO and give me link, or leave me a message/comment on my chatbox. Thanks!

only happy thoughts

Yes.

I've decided that.
I should think positively and leave my worries behind.

I'm not emo-ing. please. There are just situations that happens on the time you least expect them to happen. Sometimes, when I want to emote, the feeling isn't there. Often times, I want to be happy, emotion strikes. Still, it's like a rollercoaster ride. blah blah...

HAPPY THOUGHTS. RANDOM THOUGHTS COMING YOUR WAY. MY WAY. ON THIS BLOG. HAPPY BLOGGING!

random thought no.1 = When you actually start blogging, your actually up to a lot of thinking already. Even in the jeepney. hahaha. I happened to see a mass going on for some burial and the tricycle I was on blasted on its speed. I was like.....OH GEEESSSH! How inconsiderate! If I have a vehicle I'd be a good driver to atleast lessen my speed so that I would not interrupt the prayer/ mass going on for the deceased. GEESSH.

random thought no.2 = I swear... This one is a random one. I came across a friendster profile of someone I knew in school but DOESN'T know me actually. I added him and said..." I often see at school but I am just too shy to say "Hi". And then he answered back, "Then, say "Hi" to me! Nothing's wrong with that". Yeah right, So RIGHT! I saw him this afternoon in shuttle I was on. I almost had STIFF NECK the moment I saw him sitting across where I was seated. GOSH! It was the moment I've been waiting for. I wanted to say "Hi" but I WAS REALLY SHY I COULDN'T EVEN LOOK AT HIM IN THE EYE. Whatta whatta...!

random thought no.3 = I've said enough. I think my mind's empty now. hahaha!

blogging my loneliness and inis

I woke up 7am. SHIT , It's too early for me to get up but I can't sleep na eh.

So.

I opened my YM and got a buzz from a NEW FOUND ONLINE FRIEND. Thank YOU.
But it did not lessen my INIS. I slept early last night because someone used this computer im using right now. Good thing I got a new book straight from my grandpa’s book shelves. The book is an OLB BOOK actually. It was published way back 1966. IMAGINE? I think, no one has laid a digit on it except ME and MY LOLO MONING. It’s about DOCTOR X, an intern way back I -don’t-know-which year exactly. It’s sort of a journal/taped diary. The author chose to not expose his REAL name for come privacy. WHAT CAN I SAY THEN? Ah~ I’m SO INTO IT nah. Knowing myself, I am so certain about my interests. I like reading stories slash watching tv series that talks about MEDICINE. Yes, I’M A FAN. How about you, dear?WALA LANG. I’m a bummer. So, going back to me INIS..wala, as in nothing. I failed to construct a real reason why I got INIS about not being able to use the PC last night. May be it was because I am too eager to check my friendster profile. KUYAW!

Are you still there? You should be, no, yeah YOU SHOULD coz I am just about to tell you something. You know, Blogging…..but I am still thinking about what to share. I have a lot of things going on in my mind right now. GEESSHH! Ting, ano na? hahaha!

Okay. Last Night. Going Home. I cried. WHY?

Because I felt lonely slash empty and ignored.

It’s a two-way feeling. I smile a lot, I talk a lot but deep inside I’m not what my actions reflect. This is really making things hard for me. And worse, I feel like I’ve got no one to talk to. IT SUCKS. THIS FEELING SUCKS. And what’s making it suck a bit more? The person whom I want to talk to SEEM very MANHID of my situation. So, I realized why not BLOG it nalang. But the thing is, I DO SUCK AT BLOGGING. piskot nalang gyud ang kuwang ani ai. igit!

yown.

friendster profile

i am less aware of their daily lives. i have not even talked to them

i have been exposed to people younger than i am. met new friends and almost never thought about the past because i thought they forgot about me as well.

i came across a friendster profile and his ABOUT ME section caught my attention. he emphasized that friendster is a place where you can add a friend, post a comment only that friendship is not super real. that you only get the glimpseof one's life through captioned images and to some through videos. I say,my friends and i are miles and miles away, i can text them all i want, view their images in friendster but it's still not enough. i still miss them. i've longed to talk to them personally and go crazy with some jokes, laugh with them. but thanks God friendster existed, i still get to have a peek about how crazy my friend's life despite the distance we have between us. it's crazy but friendster, multiply and ym are all we've got to still get in touch to each other.

bisag unsa ray trip

Masi natakdan ra ko sa imung pagbinisaya sa blog.

Ako self confessed " not so guro" sa CEBUANO style na pagbinisaya. Natao ko diri sa Cebu apan nagdaku ako sa Mangagoy. I left my heart in Mangagoy. Sukad pa sa akong pagkabata hmmm gikan grade one 1 handtud 2nd year highschool didto ko nagstay sa Mangagoy, Bislig. Pero katong nag grade two namalhin na pud mi diri Cebu hoping ari na unta ko magpadayon ug iskwela ug sa dihang nibalik mi sa Mangagoy pag grade 3 nako. Mao ako, makaingon ko, akong stinuryahan namix jud sa duha ka lugar nga ako nadak-an.

Ako mga amiga matinga man nako nano kuno mura ko ug addict kaayu ug blog blog. Bitaw. Natakdan ra sad ko sa akong maabilidad musuwat na cousin na si Patice a.k.a Paciang by her friends. Sauna nagXanga mi. Then she switched to Livejournal, dayon sa Multiply. Right now, sa multiply na ko magstalk niya. STALKER BAYA KO. But I won't bite those peole I stalk. hahaha! Nanu diay kung malingaw ko ug basa basa about sa ilang life. Ikaw di man tingali ka hilig, okay ra sad. Way magbuot nimu. Hahaha..

Kpop. What can I say about Kpop? Ah, ang start pud ana kay katong gipahuwam ko sa akong ka-major na si Lorie sa katong taga Sociology department pa ko. Iya ko gipahulos atong iyang burned CDs sa My Name is Kim Sam Soon. Dayon ato, nakakita man ko sa Credits at the end of evey episodes. Soompi.com may nakabutang, with the net around me, as well the the internet cafe na mao ra jud tawn akong sandalan sauna, napadpad ko sa SOOMPI.COM/FORUMS. Mao didto ko na nurture sa ilang cultura didto. MGA KPOP ADDICT. Yes, I am a self confessed kpop addict. Di jud na nako ikalimud. Dili jud kay it has been my hobby na jud. Sa mga natakdan usab nako, MABUHAY SI TINGTING!

Sa akong pagka-EMO. Diha! EMO diay ko? Di baya. Hahaha! Mahilig lang jud tingali ko magdrama kay di man kaayo ko magtabi tabi about sa akong personal life. Sa pagtunga anang text text, ug unli texting, aw makaeksena jud kog drama nimu. Ug ikaw na nagbasa ani, tagai kog number nimu bi kay magchika ta. hahaha! CHIKA RA MAY KUWANG NAKO BA.

Music. MY LABS.

DOGS, PUPPIES...akong mga besfriends. Thank God they do exist.

FAMILY...my sandalan and my armor. hahaha!

igit ang kanunay na akong masulti. igit ue! cathy man... hahahaha as usual natakdan na sad ko. hahahahahahahahahaha ;p

THIS ENTRY WAS COPIED AND PASTED FROM MY FRIENDSTER BLOG

http://beetina.blog.friendster.com

i want a nice layout

Seriously.
I'm desperate to change the entire layout of this blog.
But I do like my blog because it's neat and yeah....NEAT and PLAIN.

I want to know how to place a chatterbox, how to put pictures at the sides.

In short, I want a customized LAYOUT. BOW

i need to get rid of coffee

why?
I have palpitations this morning and it's not good for me.

I have a heart problem and it has to function well.I do love coffee but I have to really say bye bye to it. YEAH!

Uhhmmm...If I cannot control myself, then.....maybe I should just have coffee when it's really necessary.

so long, coffee!

i hate pop up ads

gosh! im totally pissed.

sinulog '09 gallery and captions.

YAY..my mind is spinning! hahahaha! presenting my own shots during the sinulog festival.

Sinulog '09 is one of the greatest sinulog ever happend here in cebu. Gosh! This page wouldn't be enough if I make a review about the event. wheee!!....

however, i am not really good in words so let me just show to you some of my shots. kuya mon, thanks for the digicam! LAB YU LAB YU LAB Yu!!

My Story.

We went out of the house at 9 in the morning. Stayed at my aunt's house in Mandaue. Prepped some more. Make Up Make Up....hahahaha! Since when did I learn make up again? I wore make up because I wanted to look alive. I only put eyeliner and some blush on. I know it was just fine. hehe...

mamane..we did not have a pic. sniff.

but anyway... te story goes like this.

After looking for a decent and a safe parking lot, mamane and i parted ways to be with different companies. I was with Mama, Tita Set, Yan, Mommy Joji and the sisters at the Paulines. Sister Anna Marie is my aunt who happened to be a sister. She even told me I wanted to be a sister when I was young. I was shocked....but maybe it was true. I couldn't remember and I couldn't say a word when they were telling me that. WAAH! The food there was great, LOTSA food were served. But what strucked me the most is how they all welcomed us despite our number. We were more than 10 already including Yanni's friends. But they didn't mind at all. WAAH again.

So the parade started. Aw, no....the parade already started before we arrived at Paulines. I think I missed a lot of participants. Hmm..it's okay.

PARADE! Yes, the parade. I just love dancing with the song. "Sinulog, ha, syagit ug kusog! Ha!" oppps..Am I making my own lyrics? toinks!

The dress, aren't they lovely? the costumes....ahh! Greatly done. I love it! While taking these pics, I was actually dreaming of having a DSLR. hmmm..


The QUEENS. wow...graceful!


One of the most anticipated guests every sinulog festival are the celebrities who come to town and celebrate with us. They make people including me...SCREAM LIKE BABIES when we see them. I rarely see celeb in town so i make sure I get to see some during sinulog. but it doesn't affect my purpose why I am celebrating with the rest of the cebuanos in town. Sinulog is a sacred event. yeah. To the CELEBS..gosh! Thanks for coming to celebrate with US!

MORE CELEB PICS!




KC Concepcion is beautiful. bow


and Richard Guitterez is One HOT PAPA! hahaha



Anne Curtis..the dyosa...
Simply waving at people in the crowd. Wow...walang make up but look at her. Isn't she beautiful. GRABEH!



Look what I've got!!! A snap shot of the UBER daming photographers nga gakanat lang sa dalan. Bitbit andg mga dambuhalang " DREAM" cameras ko. ASTIIIIIIIIIIG!!!




The crowd. The devotees and the believers. Isa na ako dun. Kaso nga lang...I was the one who took this pic. Can you see the difference? Wala ako sa pic. Yun lang. hahha BOW



The last but not the least naman siguro, diba?

Yours Truly,

tingting operario.

can't let this feeling end

ahehehe...just stealing a line from david archuleta's new single " Touch My Hands ". I'm so in love with the song. I first heard it over a radio station, my fave Y101.1 fm here in Cebu. One of the best radio stations I've ever known.

oh and since I mentioned the station, let me then introduce to you the DJ I've been aiming to meet. It's Jud Bacalso. IDOL! I really really wanna meet him. He's so smart and intelligent and whenever I see him on screen and hear him talk over the mics in the radio I can't help but stop whatever I'm doing and just pause and listen to him. It seems like his mind is so full of ideas I want to know and be aware of them also. For me, he is such an icon here in Cebu whose existence just touched so many lives including mine. hehehe. I am going to look forward to that encounter God has planned for us. Hahaha! I have this feeling though, I have this feeling that one day I'll be able to meet him, have chika chika with him and write about our encounter, 2nd encounter. I've had a photo with him but it was gone by the waves. It wasn't my camera, and I didn't have a camera phone at the time we met. Aww~ but it's okay.

I love House Music, Dance Music and the like. I love the feeling whenever I hear such songs as Touch My Hands, Human by The Killers, Forever by my luviboy Chris Brown. OMG! Forever is my newest favorite Dance music. I've stopped dancing since I transfered here in Cebu it just so happened when I heard Forever-ever -ever, the feeling of sliding on the floor and swaying my hands side by side came back and occured on me.

the ambiance, in Terraces. Ahh~ My classmates had made fun of me when I literally exclaimed about how I want to go to Terraces everyday. I love the ambiance and the feeling of just being there gives me hope. Reminds me to work on my everyday life the ideal way of living. The first time I went there, I already had that feeling. And everytime I go back, I still feel the same kind of feeling.

towards my friends. my long distance friends, my new found friends, my 4 girlfriends. This feeling never ceased on me. We'll sure have great reunion after college. I miss you!!! I miss you! You know who you are. I lab you guys! UTANGAN TAG CHIKA NiNYU DUH!

feeling of sadness. Continuous feeling of sadness just reminds me that I am still able to feel the normal sense of life. I miss a lot of things. But I am happy with what I have right now, where I am and how I am right now.

optimism. is one of life's key to success!!! don't be easily discouraged. BOW.

things i want to do this year

i wish i can do any of these things before 2009 ends.

i know it's way too early for me sto start planning but i have read from b1te magazine about so many things i can do as a cebuano. in this city alone they've recommended so many things. all you need is time, a digicam, perhaps, money and yeah your barkada.

my wishlist will increase its number everyday, hahha! i just know it would.

1. edge coaster at crown regency ( top list talaga ha?? ang ang guys naibog na man jud ko beh!)

2. tops. i want to experience tops. i want to go there during night time and see if i get the same adrenaline as others did.

3. buy crocs. i got the idea from a magazine. i want my own pair of crocs. i won't care about not having my own havaianas slippers. gosh hava is not for me. i don't know why. but my feet looks ugly on them. hmp

4. i want to taste seattle grace's best coffee. hehehe hope it opens soon.

5. i want to have a real professional photographer friend. yah!

6. i want to try skywalking at crown regency.

7. i wish i could meet a koreana again and be friends, too. hahha!

8. and the eight. i want to go to JULIANNA. gosh! bar yan ha? but i seriously just wanna try what it's like to be in there. jusko...im grown up...sugti ko ma.

sinulog 2009

my feet are tired. it started during the procession the day before sinulog.

but i can still bare the ache. ouch! it's okay. I had so much fun.

im so excited to post up the pictures. my camera died down and i am just too tired to recharge and wait for 3 hours for it to complete recharging. hmmm~ tomorrow!

carcar to obong spring in dalaguete.

you see, it's all going SOUTH.

getting ready...mamane asked me the night before 01.11.09 if i wanted to go travel south. the idea of traveling strucked me of course. ive longed to travel. then the morning came, i was dressed and was ready to go.

SIMALA at SIBONGA Cebu City

I often hear people say about going to Simala. so when i heard that we were going to Simala, i remembered the pictures my classmates took and they looked wonderful. when i got there, i wasn't getting a lot of pics instead i prayed and grabbed the chance because i know it would take me months and months before i could go back to simala. it's a very religious place i want to hear a mass there. yeah! Cathy, you promised you'll tell me when your barkada decides a trip. ahright? haha

OBONG SPRING!!!

woooaaaah! the undiscovered cold spring. another creation you'll love. i'd love to go back there. i wasn't able to bathe myself into the cold spring because i had an emergency chuvaness and it pisses me off when i remember that. ahg! but it's okay. thanks to corie for these amazing pictures. waaaah!!! i love the cold spring. c'mon guys...let's go to obong spring again. ask me so that i'd be ready. hahha!

the overall trip was super duper fun. OMG!

i just love sm!

i mean, who wouldn't? right? now that it has been renovated. i love the great ambiance it has now. live the lights...yellow lights that does make me look pale even when im really not that pale. hahaha!




we got to take this pic when we went to sm and shopped for some new apparels. thanks to mamane. i thank you for your patience and yeah kindness! i lab you with all my heart mamane. mwah!

i missed simon, paula, randy and my ryan seacrest...there's a new girl as well.

i didn't catch her name but she's really pretty and her presence did not distract me at all. i have read that there will be an additional judge and last night was my first glance of her. and she's kind and so far, gave nice comments. but one thing i noticed is that her decisions are predictable. so unlike simon and paula. randy has got the most predictable decision at first. hahaha!

american idol season 8. as much as i desire to watch every episode of it, i don't think i can dute to my super hectic schedule. i have so many requirements to attend to plus my hospital duty. and my schedule is really not giving me a chance to watch another episode but last night. eh! hmp..hmp ..hmp. i have one potential idol already. she's from tennesse. she's got nice name and voice but i have not got her name. she's a black woman with very soulful voice like fantasia. fantasia was my bet then. waah! i miss her performing onstage. hehehe! fantasia, how are you, dear??!

just pracitin'

my kuya mon taught me how to flick the camera to get this kid of effect.
i thought i needed more light to get a better and a more artistic result.

well, this one's just a shot of myself in front of the mirror. i shook the camera so i got this blurry picture. hehehe...



whhee!! this one's my favorite for this batch. i just love it. and i feel like an expert already. rahahahaha!

trip to south ( CEBU ) 01.11.09

i am just to excited to put them in here.
i took so many pictures.

CARCAR to ARGAO to DALAGUETE to the COLD SPRING
ahhh! it was all love!

quick, quick edit!

i have saved a couple of pictures from my friend corie. glad she uploaded the pictures unto her pc right atter our trip. whee whee!!

i love jumping pictures. it's how i express how happy i am whenever i get to visit a place. so i am showing you some. hahahaha and the rest of the shots are right next up.
pic one pic two pic three pic four pic 5



who wanna play a game with me? HIGH JUMP! hahaha! i swear im on! haha! thanks corie for these nice shots! i lab you!

me and corie ( the photographer)

itunes.

i just got a real new MP3 player. my brother gave it to me.
the problem is. and iniisipan ko pa din ng paraan ito magmula ng binigay ito sa 'kin,
ang papano magtransfer ng songs dito. hindi ako marunong. sa totoo lang.

yun..at yun lang. bow

tulong! CHE!

ask me what i want.

i just want to relax.
because im so tired today.

i downloaded itunes. i've been tempted to make an account since i knew about itunes. but until now i still haven't made my account. i thought, there are a lot of radio stations in the world where there are also people who are willing to share music to everyone without a cost at all. but but but... i also thought, how would i support the artists if i depend on the radio stations? hmm.. let me think about that. i know i would make an account soon. it's just that i still don't have the money, my own money, to buy the hottest music of all time. if i were to have an itunes account, a credit card, i would like to download the best tunes. the best dance tunes like FOREVER by chris brown, DISTURBIA by Rihanna, not only that though, i would also like to download some HOUSE music which i love listening to. WHOW! heaven. i can't help but dance with the beat. hahaha...

going emotional.

who's being emotional? me.. i am always being emotional.

i feel sad when i think of friends. i feel like my friends have never really been the ones i know i'd be in. para kasing hindi naman kami nagkakatugma at any point at all. i feel sad when i see other people's pic, other barkada barakada pics. do i even have a barkada? i don't think i have. do they even love me the way i feel for them? no. because i never felt it. they never made me feel loved the way i wanted to be loved. it's the only them thing i want. that's being loved. being appreciated. they don't even trust me that much. that's why it hurts. it hurts even more when i make the effort to reach out to them but they never respond. it really really hurts.

in the delivery room.

it's a chaotic world. you get all the blame for any mistakes. it's dangerous. but it's a place i loved to be at this very moment. i miss caressing the baby's fine skin..aaww~

i was not feeling well, i even came late for today's duty but i got the cases i wanted to have. i was not being greedy. i gave others the chance to get the case. maybe it was really for me. i just wish i would be able to complete the needed data. i need to get the datas. i need to! i really really need them.

...
i miss the d.r

she's hurt. always hurt

it's because she never stop loving.
she hoped to be loved.
she's playing so hard.
wanting to be with someone she doesn't know that much.

i can see her hurting.
i can even feel it.
i wanted to help her but i can't.

when do i feel lonely?

i do feel lonely a lot.
simply not talking to me makes me think you're hiding or avoiding me.then i'd feel lonely.and i really really it when people are not talking to me.i have so many things in mind that i do not get to share a lot.i only need a signal from you for me start sharing.

it happens a lot to me. and it's making things a little bit harder for me everyday.

tasha, mamane, mama, kuya
at ako.

her name is tasha. our shitzu poodle dog.
and that woman in a shirt is my mamane.


mamane, kuya, and mama jom.

and syempre ...and rockstar...si ting ting...! hahah!

new year. new blog.

wow, here i am again people! it's a new blog. i will be updating this blog as much as i can. post pictures from different places in the world ( SOON! ). in here, i will be posting random pics i take everywhere i go. I am currently residing in cebu. this is a very beautiful and amusing place. if only i have those lenses. haha =p

it's new year, meaning a new beginning. my 2008 was a blast to me. i have a lot of wonderful experiences. yes, every year is a good one for me. there may be ups and downs but its okay. i still surived all "unos" ive been to. haha =p

HERE IS MY 2008 STORY LINE. . .

june 2008- CAPPING!!!! finally!! who would have thought a little scare baby would ever be capped? hahaha =p

july 2008 - i got to go to a lot of places since my duty started. it was a great experience to me. grabeh! i always thought of myself being on duty but my experience was totally great. i belonged to group 32 of bsn cn batch 2010 at university of san carlos in cebu city.

first duty exposure: CCMC OR

this is me and my dutymates playing dorks in the school bus after lunch. duty doesn't only mean

being haggard, we do funny things, too. haha =p


ooppsss..a pic taken last september. haha =p

so basically, we started working our butt out to fulfill the requirements last july 2008. yeah. it was quite a long journey. we took so many pics with my dutymates. haha =p
this one was taken during our pce in our school ward. it was supposedly a preparation so that our ward skills will be enhanced. it turned out even today, we haven't been exposed to the ward.
last 2008, my dutymates and i were able to do health teaching to a huge crowd of kids. YEAH! we taught handwashing- the proper way of handwashing. nyahaha =p

=]

not only i was able to do those things above but also.....

meet the gabsters CEBU!!! i miss you guys. though we only got to spend a day together, miss ko pa rin kayo! SUPER!!! GABY DM!! you're a rockstar! \m/
SOCIALIZING doesn't always mean like going out at night and having fun. socializing also means miggling with other people... like these girls..hahah=p
meet: L-R : may, grace, anna, ME, jam, jenny...they're the b.i's. why b.i? jam said, they do influence each other in a very..uuhhhmmm naughty way. they skip class as a group. so basically ...b.i....uhhmmm b.i. hahaha=p im so lame. bow.

me. sai and chatty =p

above pic: grace, aj, me, and lenie ( THE FANGIRLS! hahha!)

my friends of so many many many years......KAVEN and KAKAI. we had our twilight day when we took this pic. sa uulitin gurls!
dec 01, 2008- wow...parang ang tagal tagal na pakinggan. meet my new found friends and dutymates tin2x a.k.a my girl and chatty.

A VERY SPECIAL GIFT I RECEIVED LAST CHRISTMAS....

A BIG BANG T-SHIRT!!!!

thank you ate ninz!!!

one thing that really really made this year wonderful is that....

mama, mamane and i ate a lot at the terraces. dining with them is one of the greatest chill out thing in the world!!! hehehehe. for now, they swipe their cards, sooner or later...it'll be my turn. YEAH!

i also got a new BABY. kuya mon gave it to us. YEY! FINALLY!! maeenhance ko na ang pagiging FRUSTRATED PHOTOGRAPHER ko. hahahaha...joke. i just love taking pics. it's a hobby i can't deny.

kuya mon, worked in dubai for almost one year. gosh! i missed him so much. he came back to celebrate new year with us. catch up on his friends and to rest. he's gonna stay until sinulog is over..hmmm~ thanks for the gifts KUYA MON!!!

2 0 0 8...wow!! so many things left unshared. i wish i could write them all in here.

so long 2008!

HELLO 2009!!!